Let me to take a break for a while to calm my nerves...

I'm really frustrated right now. I don't like the feeling, and there's nothing that could help me experience it like sewing does.

The reason I sew is because I like being able to customize things, particularly in the way of clothings (because of my exceeding height). Sewing is the natural choice for me. Unfortunately, it's the most complicated thing I've ever had to deal with. I live by the theory that 'close is good enough' but sewing is the exact opposite.

• "That's close enough to the edge..." No it's not. Now your shirt will fall apart.

• "Oh, this is a little shorter than that. Oh well, I'll just sew them together anyways. It worked last time." Well it won't work this time. The rules and applications of sewing are inconsistent.

• "Crap, well I guess I'll gather on the longer piece to make it shorter and then sew them together." NOT ALLOWED "WTF? Why not?" because you're terrible at sewing and don't actually know what you're doing.

• "Fine, I'll actually take in the sleeve so they're the same size." No you won't! You don't have the guts! "Heck yes I do!" Remember all those other times you failed? Do you really want to go through that again? "..." That's what I thought.

I hate everything.

No not really, it's just fun to say that. I still love video games, but now isn't the time for those. My dad just came home early because he lost his job and I'm definitely still wearing makeup...